Random

Basically I'm just writing to write.

I don't really know what I want to write about, I just want to write.  So this is gonna be about a whole lotta nothin.  I just put my beautiful Bubbas down for her nap and made me some tea.  I'm ready to go!

My dad took me out to lunch today.  It was very much needed.  I'm starting to get bored sitting at home all day with nothing to do.  I do have my baby to play with but I need some other type of interaction throughout the day.  It was nice to be able to talk to someone who can talk back.  I think my dad and I are pretty close.  There are still a lot of things he doesn't know about me and I'm sure that I will never tell him but he does know a lot.  And I love that he still loves me anyway.  I wish it was that way with the other parent.  But I've gotten used to that. Anyway, we went to Kneaders.  That was my first time there and it was freakin delicious.  I will go back and I recommend trying it :o) 

Right now I'm going back and forth between writing and watching The True Hollywood Story on Kate Gosselin.  It's really a pretty interesting story.  I was really hoping it would change my mind about her and make me like her.  So far it's had the opposite effect.  I'm pretty sure that I can't stand to look at her face anymore.  She bothers me even more now.  The show did change my mind about Justin Bieber though.  I now have the fever.  He's a totally cute kid.

The last couple weeks have been a little rough on me.  I started takin those anti-depressants and I think they may have had a negative effect.  I went straight downhill for a min there.  Not good.  But that might also be because I'm not taking them regularly.  There will be some days that I forget to take them, so I'll take them about 3 or 4 times a week.  Oops.  But then again things have been better the last couple days so maybe not.  I dunno.  It sucked pretty bad because I was seriously scared to be alone for too long during the day.  I didn't know what was going to happen.  And that's a scary thing.  Not being able to trust yourself.  

I got some new clothes the other day.  Woot!  Finally some clothes that actually fit me.  It's fabulous.  I was so tired of being in the "in between" stage where my pre pregnancy clothes don't quite fit and the pregnancy clothes are way to big.  Super annoying.  We got my husband some new clothes too.  I decided that I was sorta getting tired of the bagging, gangster wannabe clothes.  It was time to get some sort of fashion sense.  And we did just that.  He looks amazing.  I just wanna jump him every time I see him now.  I must say that I did pretty damn good.

Phone started ringing.  I'll hurt someone if it wakes up my child.

I've started eating better. Yay!  And I've dropped a couple pounds so far.  Yay!  I also googled "exercises to do with your baby", and they have some pretty clever things.  I'm gonna try them out.  There is one thing that I refuse to get rid of though, and that's my coffee.  If I don't have my morning and afternoon coffee heads start rolling and I turn into a monster from hell.  Don't be scared  :o)  But seriously.

I started to try to be a more organized person not too long ago.  I completely re organized my whole room and got all our bills together and started to separate them into different catagories, and then for whatever reason just stopped.  I was all sorts of gung ho to do this too. I wish I could find that motivation to get back and just finish it.  Maybe it's because I'm not exactly sure what I'm doing.  With the bills anyway.  I don't really have a good excuse for the bedroom.  I keep thinking that if I just get it set up then I'll stick to it.  But I don't ever really stick to anything so I'm not sure it's even worth the time.  But then again I'm terrible with money. I like to buy things.  Lots of things.  And my husband doesn't like to tell me no, so that gets us into trouble a lot.  I think I'm going to give him my debit card.  We'll see.

Bubbas woke up.  Time to stop.  I know how entertaining this is.

    Adios muchachos.